"abide in me as I abide in you..." John 15:4
Hey Friends!I'm up at conception abbey this week - doing a personal study leave/retreat. It's been good so far - not as deep and profound as I'd like. I've been convicted about a few of my shortcomings in terms of prayer and just my recent lack of intimacy with the Father.As far as diciplines go, I've been praying the hours with the monks 2 or 3 times a day since Sunday evening.
Friday Confessional:I confess to struggling with my week at the abbey, mostly because of my own addiction to productivity. I was having one of those days where I just really didn't want to work/read. On retreat, you are supposed to not fight it...if you feel like taking a nap, you just do it...if you feel like not reading, as long as you are not just being lazy, then you trust that this is just what God wants for you in that moment and you go with it. I confess that I really fought against this and tried to muscle through and wasted some of my time fighting with myself. But I think I got the hang of it by the end!I confess to being frustrated with interruptions. I think it is God’s cosmic joke of the week that every time I have a big block of available time, that’s when somebody “drops by.” The joke is on me, of course, because interruption should be considered one of life’s great blessings and the interruptions, without fail, were much more interesting than the thing I was actually doing.I confess to flirting with despair. It is my favorite sin.I confess to eating 2 entire packages of Keebler Fudge Sticks while on study leave…two…by myself.I confess that I started the atkins diet today. I know it’s probably bad for you, but so is my current weight. I confess that my whole goal in doing this is simply to be able to walk from here to there without limping because of the stupid injury of the week.
Hello! Seems I was not the only one missing this week. We were in Mexico as a family, great time. What was disappointing for me myself was my lack of time spent in the word. Usually when I'm away I have more time to read scripture, this time, I really only picked up the bible a few times. I could use the kids distraction as an excuse, but that's all it would be, an excuse. I love to see the beauty of nature around me, it makes God so real. How can anyone look at his natural beauty and even think that man can do anything half as good? I love the ocean and mountains....even the sea creatures He made astound me!
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