"abide in me as I abide in you..." John 15:4
I did the BCP hours early this morning. It was only OK, the readings really weren't that great. Hope everyone has a great week...read your bible!!peace,-t
Going to read my bible now. I wanted to get on so you guys could hold me accountible, because I've done nothing today.
I am reading the Pause devotional bible everynight, I am still in Genesis and John. kd
Today I was running a little bit late so instead of the hours I went to sacred gateway to do the meditation there. It is a great meditative prayer site. I was grateful for the promptings and the time of introspection.http://www.sacredgateway.org/Peace,-t
I prayed the hours yesterday and today. Both days felt hurried and not as meditative as I wanted them to feel.
I prayed the BCP Morning Office this morning. I was a little distracted because other people were around. Yesterday and today, both, I did the Jesus Prayer a couple times. That' been a really good way to redeem some of the wasted time in class.Peace,-t
I started reading Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell last night. I know I am a little behind the times on finally getting to it. Anyway I wanted to mention a few things he says," Times change but God doesn't, but times do. We learn and grow, and the world around us shifts and the Christian faith is alive only when it is listening, morphing, innovating, letting go of whatever has gotten in the way of Jesus and embracing whatever will help us be more and more the people God wants us to be."What stuck out to me in this is 'whatever has gotten in the way of Jesus.' I think this is very true with what we have been struggling with and what we are asking the people of k10 to look at. I think we have to consistanly think about that...was in the way of Jesus. kdthank you for a negative preggo test on a friend who didn't need that news right now.thank you for random acts of kindness.thank you for the Pittengers and how they are impacting marriages.
I prayed a lot yesterday......for some of it I even used words.I did not read anything yesterday so I read a couple chapters in Ephesians this morning, followed by Acts 16,17,18.
I have been enjoying "Believing God" by Beth Moore audio cd. It was so scripture rich. Amazingly, this whole study is on reclaiming the promise land. She talked about how either God has changed or the church has changed...and you know which one it is. The timing is just God's humor shining through. I think I'm enjoying "hearing" scripture even more that my reading times right now. I felt bad about that, then realized why? It is still the word of God and that must be part of my pathway right now.
I am praying so much for guidance and discernment right now, that maybe I have forgotten to delight in God, contemplate God and her creation etc etc. This occured to me as I was reading this morning from the Personal Narrative of Jonathan Edwards and was interested in his transformation from delighting in “religious duties” to delighting in “the beauty and excellency of his person” Even as a child Edwards had built a place in the woods to pray in secret several times a day. Here he talks about how those religious things wore off….. "…But in process of time, my convictions and affections wore off; and I entirely lost all those affections and delights and left off secret prayer, at least as to any constant performance of it; and returned like a dog to his vomit, and went on in the ways of sin….The first instance that I remember of that sort of inward, sweet delight in God and divine things that I have lived much in since, was on reading those words, I Tim. 1:17. Now unto the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only wise God, be honour and glory for ever and ever, Amen. As I read the words, there came into my soul, and was as it were diffused through it, a sense of the glory of the Divine Being; a new sense, quite different from any thing I ever experienced before Never any words of scripture seemed to me as these words did. I thought with myself, how excellent a Being that was, and how happy I should be, if I might enjoy that God, and be rapt up to him in heaven, and be as it were swallowed up in him for ever! I kept saying, and as it were singing over these words of scripture to myself; and went to pray to God that I might enjoy him, and prayed in a manner quite different from what I used to do; with a new sort of affection. But it never came into my thought, that there was any thing spiritual, or of a saving nature in this. From about that time, I began to have a new kind of apprehensions and ideas of Christ. and the work of redemption, and the glorious way of salvation by him. An inward, sweet sense of these things, at times, came into my heart; and my soul was led away in pleasant views and contemplations of them. And my mind was greatly engaged to spend my time in reading and meditating on Christ, on the beauty and excellency of his person, and the lovely way of salvation by free grace in him. I found no books so delightful to me, as those that treated of these subjects. Those words Cant. 2:1, used to be abundantly with me, I am the Rose of Sharon, and the Lily of the valleys. The words seemed to me, sweetly to represent the loveliness and beauty of Jesus Christ. The whole book of Canticles used to be pleasant to me, and I used to be much in reading it, about that time; and found, from time to time, an inward sweetness, that would carry me away, in my contemplations. This I know not how to express otherwise, than by a calm, sweet abstraction of soul from all the concerns of this world; and sometimes a kind of vision, or fixed ideas and imaginations, of being alone in the mountains, or some solitary wilderness, far from all mankind, sweetly conversing with Christ, and wrapt and swallowed up in God. The sense I had of divine things, would often of a sudden kindle up, as it were, a sweet burning in my heart; an ardor of soul, that I know not how to express...."
Friday Confessions:I confess that I had so little will power this week that I actually bribed myself to finish some of my readings by watching 5-10 minutes of “Shadowlands,” each hour until I finished the movie (and the book).I confess that I didn’t exercise once this week. I’m going to try and go this afternoon.I confess that I should study tonight because Kristin is out of town, but I’m planning to go watch U23D instead.I confess that this one class I’m taking is so unbelievably bad that I feel superior to the teacher.I confess that I am so driven to pursue understanding and knowledge that sometimes I’m a bit reckless with the information that I’ve learned. I think this has hurt other people sometimes.I confess that I buy books to make myself feel better when I’m having a bad day. I confess that I care way too much what other people think of me.I confess that I didn’t do the hours (not even morning prayers) yesterday. It was the first time I’ve missed in several weeks & the only reason I didn’t do it is because I just didn’t feel like it.I confess that its Feb. 1 and I really need an office.
I confess that I have gossiped more than I wish to admit this week.I confess that I didn't read as much scripture as I wanted to b/c I am reading Velvet Elvis.I confess that I am pretty frustrated with some issues that I cannot list due to what they are and I have been angry at whom they involve.I confess that I am looking forward to lent but afraid I won't be able stick to what I am giving up.I confess that God is calling me to do something right now but I can't see how am I supposed to manage what I think he's calling me to. I confess that when I was doing to adult personality sheet for the parenting class that Ken had to tell me some of the traits I have...does that mean I don't know who I am?I agree Tim, I need the office to be done also.
I confess that this week, I was manipulative, and tried to make myself seem smarterthan I really am.I confess I yelled at Lucas today and made him cry I confess I called Bill a dumb ass in front of our kidsYou know what, let me just be out with it: this week I gossiped, I ate too much, I felt superior, I was impatient, and two faced. So now I feel crappy, guilty and fat which is self-indulgent and self-centered, to round out the whole loser package!
I confess I feel right at home with you guys! I too have felt no self control when it has come to food this week.I confess that I love my kiddos so much and just enjoyed being their mom this week.I confess that when Jeff came home from being gone ALL week, that both of us wanted to play the I've had it worse than you game and both of us wanted to win. I think I wanted to win more!I confess to being mad that nothing is getting done around my house. I confess to wasting too much time on the computer and email.I had some wonderful prayer time this week. I've felt more positive than I have in a long time.I've hopped around in scripture, but need to go back to more guided reading for myself.
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