"abide in me as I abide in you..." John 15:4
I did the Divine Hours today at Midday. I overslept and didn't do them in the morning. I'll do vespers for sure before I go home this evening & hopefully I'll do compline tonight before bed.Peace,-t
Hey, I've really been struggling with my passion for Christ. It's a terrible place to be....I sat down today and feel like a finally had some time with God, where He was pointing me in a direction. I've really felt like I've been wandering-yuck. The most amazing of the passages He took me to today was Revelation 3 1-6 and 15-17. I'll share how the message put those scriptures: "I see right through your work. You have a reputation for vigor and zest, but you're dead, stone dead. Up on your feet! Take a deep breath! Maybe there's more life in you yet. But I wouldn't know by looking at your busy work, nothing of God's work has been completed. Your condition is desperate. Think of the gift you once had in your hands, the Message you heard with your ears-grasp it again and turn back to God. 15-17 I know you inside and out and find little to my liking. You're not hot or cold-far better to be either cold or hot! You're stale. Your'e stagant. You make me want to vomit. Wow! This really spoke to me. I've been begging God to have something speak to me instead of me just going through the motions. I know it's just a beginning....but I want to feel the passion again.
sorry i've been mia for a few weeks, this has kind of fallen off my radar screen (the blogging, not the abiding).i've been reading through the book of exodus the last couple of weeks, and its been really great. i feel like it is teaching me so much about the reality that God is leading this thing, i love the image of the pillar of cloud and fire, leading, guiding, protecting, providing. i've been praying for that same expereince for our community.
My time with God this week has just been in prayer. Someone in my community group has asked for prayer during a difficult situtaion. So I have just spent time praying that God will just wrap his arms around the situation and all involved. It has been awesome to see my group respond to someone in need.kd
I did the BCP hours this morning. The readings were from Genesis, Hebrews and John. I'm hoping to continue with the prayers at least a couple more offices today.Peace,-t
Did the BCP office this morning. The readings are still in Gen./Heb./John. We read Psalm 18 and that was my favorite part. I was thinking how nice it is to have a crag and a haven...OK I don't really know what a crag is but I do lean into the idea that God is my haven. Here's a little piece:1 I love you, O LORD my strength, O LORD my stronghold, my crag, and my haven. 2 My God, my rock in whom I put my trust, my shield, the horn of my salvation, and my refuge; you are worthy of praise.
I read Genesis 3-5 and John 1:19-1:51 last night. I am realizing I if I have my solitude at night after the kids are in bed I can get at least 30-45 minutes in before I go to sleep. Anyway, what stood out to me in John is when Philip brought Nathanael to see Jesus for the first time. Jesus made a comment and Nathanael said,"Where did you get that idea? You don't know me." Jesus answered,"One day, long before Philip called you here I saw you under a fig tree." Nathanael exclaimed, "Rabbi! You are the Son of God, the King of Israel!" Jesus replied,"You've become a believer simply b/c I say I saw you one day sitting under a tree? You haven't seen anything yet! Before this is over you are going to see heaven open and God's angels desending to the Son of Man and ascending again. Would it be great if it was that easy to show people Jesus? "Oh, by the way you don't know me but I saw you at Starbucks the other day" and they reply, "really! it must be true then please tell me about your God, I want to become a disciple and follow him!" have a good day!kd
Hey Kristen,I read that passage yesterday too. I was interested by the same exact thing...cool.-t
Kristen, great wish about the ease of sharing Christ. I've been leaning in to Matthew 22:34-40 to love the Lord with all your heart...and love your neighbor as yourself. It is the verse for the kids this week in elementary and I am teaching the bible story portion. The also tie it in to putting Jesus first and not making rules just for the sake of rules and especially if they interfere with your relationship with Christ. I also had a great accountiblity meeting today. Came away refreshed and challenged, love that. I'm still in a funky place, but feel the slightest movement....which is promising.
Kerrie:I am glad that you are coming out of your stillness and feeling some ripples of motion!kd
This morning I read Proverbs 18 and Pslams 116-118 and parts of 119 I always am lifted by the Psalms. 119:1-8 spoke to me.Confessions:I confess that I love my husband. He is much better a husband than I am a wife. I confess that I'm still in a funky place and trying to crawl out of it and unsure what to do at times.I confess that I was a bad friend last week and let my crap seep onto someone else.I confess that I've been very short on patience.I confess that I'm putting off doing some preschool curriculum stuff because it is just "task" stuff.
Hi y'allI prayed the hours yesterday and today. (so far) So I told you guys I was reading Galatians, a really long time ago, and I am embarrassed that I have to admit I am still reading it because it is like 4 pages long. That is the problem with accountability isn’t it? Also read a little in Proverbs.Friday confessions: I confess to feeling dispassionate about ministryI confess to selfishness/self-centerednessI confess to feeling like “screw this” I just want to be normalI confess that though I am reading more, praying more, and meditating more, I feel less excited than ever about church stuff…WHY IS THIS??I confess I talk way too much about myself, and I hate that in people
Friday Evening Confessional:I confess that I’m struggling with anger. This week I picked two fights with Kristin just because I could and because I was feeling mean.I confess that I feel drained and I have very little patience.I confess that I was so short with my kids today. I know that I hurt their feelings several times just because I snapped at them over something stupid. They deserved much better than they got from me today.I confess that I’ve been extremely disciplined over the past few weeks and months but I’ve not really felt much benefit – especially this past week.I confess that self-knowledge doesn’t seem to lead to changes in my behavior.I confess to feeling very broken and vulnerable today – not emotions that I particularly enjoy feeling.I confess that the end result of the above confessions is a sort of self-loathing that is as pitiful as it is self-indulgent. I don’t think I believe my own pep talks right now.
I confess that I was a little short on patients this last couple daysI confess that the fact of you cannot learn anything unless you put the work in is really frustrating....I just want to know and not work at it.I confess that I am feeling like I want to be a hermit for awhile.kd
I did the BCP morning office and did the midday prayers with Divine Hours.Peace,-t
I'm working on Matthew 22:36-40. I've struggled on how to keep this simple and yet talk for more than 1 minute to the elementary kids. I want them to get it in their hearts.
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